Sunday Evening again

which is why a lot of you just got emails, sorry got bit behind there
spent money on amazon as well, sigh
got B5 series 4 on DVD new for less than half price.

Last sunday evening with gamer's gamers here, yay.
it made me bit cranky today and I yelled at him
It's been a long time since that happened, at some point I got comfortable living with him

I'm feeling quite homesick at the moment for several reasons, some will pass and others won't exist if I leave it much longer to go back
mostly its just escapism I think, no long dark nights, no job stuff, no health stuff, no social stuff etc etc
Miche hit the nail on the head when she talked about bifracting (or somethin) my life, and I have and it no longer matters where I am something will be pulling me to go back.
I assure myself this will pass, but at the moment it feels tied up with the larger thing, of not knowing what I'm doing with my life.
I have no idea where I want to be and sometimes this bothers me. I work hard at OU, but to what purpose??? I never take it any further academically. Is that just lack of motivation or recognition that I'm not that bright or applied to my task when self managing.

gah!!!!

actually one thing about not knowing what to do with your life is that you should always be open to new oppurtunities, though I'm not seeking many of them out either, sigh.

it will pass, it always does, is just feeling a bit stuck at the moment.